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Hey, du, wie war der Hamburg-Trip?

I've just come back from my travel to Hamburg. Yeah, of course it was great! I met 20 other fantastic people, ate good food, had the coolest experience of sticking to the wall for a few minutes at the fun fair and fell in love with a tortoise named Kassiopea (well, he rapped!).
Couldn't ask for anything more interesting than all those combined together.

There were 6 girls on that trip, 3 came with their boyfriends. To observe them was very amusing, really. I couldn't stop smiling to myself seeing how the lovers behaved towards each other. And omg, they all looked very cute together. Especially the smallest couple (Yana, you've found yourself a great 'escort' there. sgt sweet ok! *wink2* ). Gosh, I have no idea what more to write. I guess I just need to confess that I envy them..... You lovie-dovie people looked very happy and I'm so happy for you.

Postsecret

being recommended by a friend, I begin to read postsecret on youtube. After watching slides after slides of postsecret, one can absolutely see the trend. Although some of the secrets are happy ones, most of them are not. Which makes sense. The possibility of something negative being a secret is higher, simply because it's not easy to be expressed and shared with the world.

Some recurrent issues that caught my attention:

a) loneliness and the longing for love, friends, acknowledgement, faith. A very wide spectrum of things in daily life that are needed in the pursue of self satisfaction. I believe this concerns each and every one of us. The difference between us is just in how we are dealing with it.

b)the regret of having an abortion. I'm glad that my religion forbids this in the first place because you're not only killing a person by doing this ,but you're also letting yourself be haunted with the regret years and years after, maybe for the rest of you life. Almost all cases are the result of sex before marriage.

c) regret for not telling someone you love that you love them. Which I think the worst thing that could ever happen to you. Some of the case: a child regrets not telling his father who he has not seen for a long, long, time that he actually already forgives him. A girl marries another guy because she doesn't have the guts to confess her love to the one she actually prefers to be married to. Friendship which turns into love but not spoken out for fear of the silence that might accompany or losing the best friend altogether. Have to say that I'm glad I did what I did. No regrets.

d) (sexual) abuse. Most of them are adults who are still haunted by the incident that happened years ago. Most have not shared their secret with anyone. I wonder how are they coping hiding the fact deep inside. Or maybe they're merely surviving? God help this people for it wasn't their fault that they were abused/ raped/ molested. Oddly enough some of them said that no one believed them when they told people about what happened.

Postsecret really taught me some lessons. Be more CONCERN to the people around me. Be a good listener. Silence is not a solution.

google postsecret. read them. watch them on youtube. they're really good. hopefully, some way or the other, we could learn from other people's secrets.

Brain damaging habits

This evening I received an E-mail from my father . Despite the fact that it was a forwarded mail I was very excited because it has been very seldom that his mail reaches my inbox. Were you thinking of me? I am thinking of you too!

Anyway, the mail was about brain damaging habits, which are
1. No Breakfast
2. Overeating
3. Smoking
4. High Sugar consumption
5. Air Pollution
6. Sleep Deprivation
7. Head covered while sleeping
8. Working your brain during illness
9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts
10.Talking Rarely


Wait, wait , what? talking rarely? Dem, das betrifft mich direkt! And I put the blame on the German language that I still cannot perfectly master even after 2 years of living in Germany. HAHA. Dulu aku ingat duduk sini 2, 3 bln terus boleh terer cakap. Rupanya jauh panggang dari api. Padan muka aku.

Ja, and it seems that I need to change my habit of covering my head with the duvet while sleeping because it turns out that "sleeping with the head covered increases the concentration of carbon dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain damaging effects". Patut la aku rasa diriku semakin hari semakin biol. So this is the scientific explanation that I've been searching for all this time! lol

Hmm, and I think my brain really lacks of stimulating toughts right now. Maybe I need to start doing SUDOKU as Gerhirnjogging....